O.A's for Life

So let me tell you a funny, and embarrassing story that no one seems to remember. When I really young, like 5 or so, my brother, my mom, and I were were at a friend's house. They had three boys, so my brother was playing with them, and I had to go to the bathroom really badly. I was in overalls at the time. I had no idea how to get them off. I was calling for my mom but she no where to be found (she was in the house but in a different room). I was in the bathroom telling my brother to find my mom through the bathroom door, but it was too late...

As I am reading this, I really am questioning why the hell am I sharing this story! No one remembers it, so why do people need to know that I peed myself when I was about 5? I wish I truly knew. To me though, that is a funny story. Embarrassing, but funny. 

I'm 90% sure I never wore overalls again in my life until the past month. I love shopping y'all, and about two months ago I found a pair of short-all, which are over alls in short form, duh, at Old Navy. (Side note, Old Navy is very very very much my happy place, well at least in the shopping world, AND! I am starting to be able wear smaller sizes there. Go me!) So I was shopping, and they had the short-alls in a size smaller of what a normally wear, and I've wanted them so badly that I tried them on. They fit but they were so tight that I was seeing my flaws, and I knew I couldn't rock them, so I held off.

About a few weeks later, I placed an order online and ordered them there. They finally arrived and THEY SENT ME THE WRONG SIZE! I was so disappointed. I ended up returning them and I found my size at the outlet mall about a week later. They are actually a little big but I was so excited! I couldn't stop smiling the rest of the day. My off day couldn't have come fast enough so I could wear them.

For the first time in almost 20 years, I put on over-alls. I was so excited, and so nervous at the same time. I have watched Buzzfeed videos, and there are some videos that talk about how plus size girls can't wear certain colors or pieces of clothing, and I never really thought that was true until I personal started wearing clothes that I thought I shouldn't. For me, I have always had issues with my stomach, and seeing my flaws, that is why I never tuck my shirt in, again, until recently. So for me to wear an outfit that had a tucked in shirt, and basically just showed your figure, that was something that took me a little time to understand and learn to be confident in it.

The day I wore the over-alls for the first time, I was so confident in myself, and so happy with how I looked, I did a small impromptu mini shoot. It has probably been a year since I felt that happy where all I wanted to do was take a bunch of selfies. It was a wonderful feeling. 

About two weeks later, I decided to wear them again! My mom and I were going to a local festival and I wanted to look cute. This time, I tried to wear them a little differently. I tried wearing them with one shoulder straps connected but draped under my arm instead of on my shoulder. I thought it was a cute look, so I'll take it.

I was rocking that look at home, but once I got out and moving I wasn't so sure, and it felt like they were falling off of me so I put them on normally, and went on my merry little way.

For me, I am trying to learn to love myself again. To be confident and to just be me. And to do that, I need to step out of my own comfort zone. I felt so confident in these over-alls when I was at home, but once I got in public I really questioned it but I had to keep thinking about how wonderful I felt at home. If I could feel that way at home, why couldn't I feel that way in public? 

Sarah ♥︎