Freedom

Do you ever dream about what you wish your life could really be like? Having the freedom but pleasure in doing what you love. What 20 something hasn’t wish for that?!

Being the “millennial” that I am, I hate working the typical 9-5. Let’s be real though, I’ve never really worked the 9-5. I worked retail, I’ve worked hospitality and I’ve worked events. Yes, there has been a few months or days that have been a 9-5, but it’s never been a common thread in my life.

Being like the typical 20 something years olds, I’m lost. With rounding 30 in next year (I’m still 28), I’m so unsure of what I want to be in my life and I don’t know how to achieve my goals.

People use that word as a toxic trait and it’s disrespectful. Millennials are the last generation that grew up before technology was in our pockets. We are also the first generation to grow up with technology in our pockets. We are a different breed.

We are in a phase of ‘Here I am! I’m adulting.’ ‘I have to be in the real world but I have no idea what I want to do.’ ‘I bring so much to the table and get treated like garbage day in and day out for a job that I live paycheck to pay check, but it’s my dream job.’

I got my “dream job” and guess what! I quit it! I was treated like a slave day in and day out. I was told that “this is your job” and to basically suck it up. Working 12-14 hours a day, everyday on 4-5 hours of sleep. This is the “norm.”

Before quitting this job and even my then “dream job” before it, I would imagine what I want my life to be. Asking myself, “if you couldn’t fail, what would you do.” Well now is that time for me to truly ask myself that and chase those dreams that I’ve been daydreaming about for months.

Am I scared? Hell yeah. Am I excited? 1,000%! Do I know what I want to do with my life? I have an idea. Do I know how to do that? Not at all but you know what I do know? I am strong. I am driven. I’ve worked my ass off to get as far as I’ve gotten in life because of what I’ve done for myself. Not because someone else did the work for me. Because I. Did. It!

Today starts a new adventure. A new month. A new mindset. I’m excited for the journey and I’m here for it. I hope you enjoy the ride and support me where I need it. Encourage me when I’m having a hard time. Love me when I’m learning to love and guide myself. We are going to move waves and today is just the beginning. I hope in a year from today we all look back and smile at how far I’ve come.

God bless.

Sarah ♥︎

(I wrote this September 1st at about 11:45pm.)